urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson Kristin Kay Richardson Kristin Kay Richardson 2002-11-06T19:32:48Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:6139 2002-11-06T19:32:48Z 2002-11-06T19:32:48Z Leighanne and I went shopping *grins*. We each bought Justin's album and I spoiled Matthew <b>rotten</b> with toys,clothes and all sorts of stuff! It all helped to take my mind off of everything else. I want to get Leigh to go clubbing with me too but I dont know if that would work lol. <br /><br />*pops a Nestle Crunch bar in her mouth* <br /><br />I am in the process of cleaning the house right now....because yeah....its the right thing to do since I am a temporary resident. I am about to move onto the kitchen soooo I best get to it. Its the least I can do for Leighanne. And I am soooo lonely that its keeping me busy to clean! lol. <br /><br />Leighanne- Yesterday was great! *grins* lets do that again soon! Oh and I hope I didnt spoil Matt <i>too</i> much. *giggles*<br /><br />Kevin- *sighs* I miss you baby.....I guess I'll try calling again and atleast spill my feelings to the answering machine....though I wish I could talk to you.....if you see this before we talk.....call me....I need to tell you something and its important. I *bites bottom lip* nevermind urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:4661 2002-10-23T22:53:28Z 2002-10-23T22:53:28Z Yeah...I AM. No one can tell me otherwise. I am my own person....no one has any right to tell me no. <br /><br />Kevin and I fought *sighs*. I told him he should listen to Nick and Brian for a change and he got mad at me. I told him its been Nick that has kept me from divorcing him....I dont know what he's doing now....I really dont.<br /><br />I am now looking forward to this Florida trip even more. Just Nick, Brian, Justin and I....having a great time. I havent had a great time in a while.....hell I havent drank that much since Millennium went big. <br /><br />*giggles* well until last night that is....I told Nick to ask brian where he and Leigh kept the alcohol and once I knew....I drank. Boy I was buzzed by the time I went to bed! lol. I have a headache now but oh well....it'll go away!!<br /><br />ok I am going to go....I am talkin to my Lusty Justy! :-)<br /><br />Bye!<br />Kristin urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:4439 2002-10-22T19:11:01Z 2002-10-22T19:11:01Z Ok....I really dont know what to put. I am here alone....again. This time I am packing my things....because I am going to be moving into Leigh and Brian's house until she or he comes back. Kevin doesnt know yet....though how can I tell him if he's never here? He's always with Leighanne or just out.....*sighs* I thought we were ok again but I guess I was wrong. <br /><br />I talked to Justin last night....and I must admit....he's a sweetheart and makes me feel appealing and like a good person. I'm his "Kinky KiKi" *blushes* and he's my "Lusty Justy"<br /><br />Between him....and Nick I'll have a compliment a day I think *blushes* Maybe I'll ask Justin to hang out sometime.....<br /><br />I hafta get going...I'll update more later maybe!<br />Bye!<br />Kristin urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:4012 2002-10-15T23:54:57Z 2002-10-15T23:54:57Z Well I stayed with Leighanne last night after a wonderful girls night out.....well almost. Kevin came along....and hung out with us....can you imagine my husband on a girls night out? *laughs* Lets just say he got bored after a while and went back to the hotel. <br /><br />Leighanne and I talked and played with Matthew....then I sent her to bed and told her Id take care of him. I told Matthew how much his daddy loves him, like I have gotten used to doing, and put him to bed. <br /><br />I love getting up for 2am feedings and all that good stuff!<br /><br />I also talked to Nick today.....it was good to be able to do that....he seems so happy.....maybe that can be a good thing..<br /><br />Gotta go! <br /><br />Kristin urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:3820 2002-10-15T01:15:42Z 2002-10-15T01:15:42Z "Faithfully" by Journey Wow.....I have been consoling Leighanne all day. She called me and told me Brian updated and we were talking for hours. I keep telling her it'll be ok. I've helped with Matthew....and that keeps making me want to have a baby of my own. I love babies!<br /><br />Atleast Leighanne talks to me....unlike my other two best friends....Brian and Nick both dont talk to me anymore. I dont deserve that....not at all! I am supporting you guys because you are my friends.....but I cant abandon Leighanne either so you guys have to deal with the idea that I am neutral. Please just talk to me.....you can trust me....<br /><br />Gotta go!<br />Kristin urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:3174 2002-10-07T04:00:06Z 2002-10-07T04:00:06Z Nick Carter - "Help Me" Well.....I'm still feeling sickly.....which is driving me crazy because I cant go see Leighanne, Brian and Matthew.....Kevin goes daily by my request...otherwise he'd just stay here with me. He's been so good to me....god he's the best man in the world. He didnt tell me how his talk with Brian went but when he got back he was in a good mood so it couldnt have been too bad. <br /><br />On a better note....I talked to Nick again today. We're on good terms....as a matter of fact we're on great terms! We're back to our old joking selves again. We've got plans for the next BSB tour already *grins mischeviously*. Trust me......ya'll will know if we get to do what we plan to. I'm so glad we're talking again.....<br /><br />Nickerson - Thanks for forgiving me.....that means the world to me....and I think the next tour will be the best by far....we'll have so much fun! We'll hafta work on our best-seller book too! lol. <br /><br />Kevin - Thanks for dragging me away from the computer Saturday....I needed to sleep and you knew that. Thanks for being there and loving me and I love you so so so much! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:2624 2002-10-05T05:35:50Z 2002-10-05T05:35:50Z Ok....I talked to Nick today. And he goes off on me in his journal....nice. Well fine.....if thats the way he wants to be then fine. He puts words in my mouth.....and pretty much accuses me of taking Leighanne's side.....which I am not.....I am neutral. I NEVER made him out to be the bad guy.....never! He's making himself out to be the bad guy.....no one else is. So he can talk to me when he's ready to be my friend again because I'm not starting any conversation anymore. <br /><br />*sobs*<br /><br />Ok...I'm going to cut this thing short....<br /><br />Got problems? Go to someone else!! Obviously I'm not good at helping and being a friend!<br /><br />*cries even harder now* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:2424 2002-10-04T05:09:32Z 2002-10-04T05:09:32Z Before Your Love By kelly Clarkson I know its late...and I know you dont have a journal yet baby....but Happy birthday to you, Kevy. I love you more than my life and could never love anyone else. I know this wasnt the way you wanted to spend your birthday....and I'm sorry for that. I'll make up for it once everything is ok again....I promise. Thank you for being there when I was sick and worried.....you've helped alot and I am glad you are here. Maybe.....just maybe....when we get to KY again....we can go on one of your walks hmm? *grins over her shoulder at him* Ok....I'm coming to bed....tomorrow is going to be a busy day.....<br /><br />I love you baby!<br /><br />Kristin ~*~KiKi~*~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:2282 2002-10-03T05:05:46Z 2002-10-03T05:05:46Z "Lately" by RJ Helton off of the American Idol CD I'm still in Atlanta and plan to be here until Leighanne says its ok to go home. <br /><br />When Nick came in today....I got up to let them talk and Leighanne insisted I stay....so I did. When Nick went to take her hand she was very very hesitant....and to be honest I dont think she looked at him directly once. They avoided the topic I am sure he wanted to talk about.....which I cant blame that at all. In all reality it was kinda uncomfortable for her. <br /><br />Later she tried calling her house to talk to Brian....and found out he isnt there. Ofcourse she asked me "Why isnt my husband staying in our house?" and I said that I didnt know....even though I do know where he is. Kevin booked a room in the same hotel for us. And I have seen them. I havent the heart to tell her where her husband is. She's been doing so much better that I couldnt bring her back down again....it wouldnt be right. <br /><br />I am trying to be undertsanding about this whole thing but its so hard......because no one truly knows what is going on. <br /><br />Brian- Ok....you need to be upfront with your wife about everything right now....because right now she is the person who matters....to hell with everyone else.....we all are willing to take a backseat until you two work things out. She wants to know why you arent staying at the house....so tell her....although I really wish you had stayed at the house...but its your decision...but you need to think of what you may have missed when she called. Good things could have came from those converstaions. But..Honest to God Brian....she wont wait for you forever.....and you could lose everything....so please....just be careful. And remember I am here if you need to talk....always and you know it. <br /><br />Nick- I'm sorry I've blown you off since you got here....its just...I havent known what to say. And its scared me to see how happy you are around Brian....but I am here for you sweetie....talk to me if you need to.<br /><br />Leighanne- I want you to know that I will stay in Atlanta for as long as you want me to....my schedule is open for a long time! *looks over shoulder at Kevin and nods* Kevin says he'll stay too and that we can stay here in the hotel. <br /><br />Ok I am going to bed I think. Its been a long day and I need sleep.<br /><br />Love ya'll!<br />Kristin ~*~Ki Ki~*~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:2033 2002-10-01T02:31:22Z 2002-10-01T02:31:22Z Ok...I am going to do this as quick as I can.....because right now I am flying to Atlanta because of an emergency...<br /><br />Leighanne called me today all upset and crying over all that is going on. She was all worked up over this whole Brian and Nick thing. To be honest I think she's worried she'll be alone now and that he's going to leave her forever. I tried reassuring her but it didnt work at all. We talked for hours upon hours about all of this and I told her I thought everything would work out for the better...that I trusted Brian and Nick to do the right thing for everyone. She was still really worried when I hung up to call her sister Suzanne. <br /><br />Suzanne promised me she'd go to visit right away and we hung up. I then thought everything was fine until about a half an hour later. That is when Suzanne called from Brian and Leighanne's in an absolute panic. "She's collapsed Kristin!!! She's unconcious! I've called for an ambulance!". Well I told her to ride with Leigh and I'd be down immediately and I'd try to get ahold of Brian. So far no luck on Brian at all....I've tried everything I can think of. So if anyone sees him or hears from him please tell him to come home and to call because I'll pick him up at the airport. <br /><br />God I hope everything is ok.....she's gotten too far to lose this baby now....she needs to be ok.....please let her be ok.<br /><br />Brian- Please please please come home....Leighanne needs you....this baby needs you! <br /><br />Ok....I need to go....<br />Kristin ~*~KiKi~*~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:1594 2002-09-30T12:29:24Z 2002-09-30T12:29:24Z Well....I am only updating because I am up and about. I am really sick right now.....Kevin....he's at witts end because we had fought last night....and now I'm sick. I told him last night, as we fought, that if things didnt change that I planned on divorcing him....and that really quieted him down. He slept on the couch and came in this morning to find me very very sick.....I just sent him to take a nap because he hasnt slept and has been by my side all morning....I think everything will be ok now....he's proven himself to me. He does love me and thats all I need to know now....<br /><br />I'm going back to bed...<br />Kristin "KiKi" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:1304 2002-09-29T05:10:29Z 2002-09-29T05:10:29Z I cant believe I went off on Brian and Nick! I walk right in and go off and rant about them going to hell and.....*buries head in hands* I'm an awful person!!! The looks on their faces...how could I do that! <br /><br />I'm sorry guys....I really am! I hope you'll forgive me for being so awful to you! I hope you'll love me anyways!<br /><br />As far as Kevin.....well.....he's furious about this whole thing and demanded we go home immediately. I plan on talking to him about this....to see if he'll calm down. There's alot more we need to talk about but thats another story.....<br /><br />Ok....I'm going to close this now!<br />KiKi urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:1122 2002-09-29T03:49:55Z 2002-09-29T03:49:55Z Leigh's cries still echoing in my head from all night I am on a plane now on my way to Florida....because as of right now....there is no way in hell I will leave my husband down there! No way! Sure we are on the rocks but right now I'd rather deal with him than let them! My two best friends.....*shudders* <br /><br />I am giving Leigh the space she wants on the condition she knows I am a phone call away at ALL times. She needs her alone time for now but eventually she will need her friends.....and I plan on being there all the way.<br /><br />Nick- *sighs* I...I cant even say anything....<br /><br />Brian- I hope you are happy.....I truly do. Leighanne doesnt need any stress and I'm sorry but this isnt going to help her at all.....you need to figure out what you want.....please....its for your own good and Leigh's. <br /><br />*looks up after a LONG pause and sees what she's typed*<br /><br />I'm sorry guys......I guess its just kinda a shock.....I'm sorry about going off....I hope you can forgive me.....I'm not a good friend if I dont try to understand....I'll try harder...<br /><br />I hafta go....I land in a few minutes...<br /><br />Kristin "KiKi" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:879 2002-09-28T00:25:40Z 2002-09-28T00:25:40Z Us singin lots of songs Yesterday was so much fun! I was so so so tired after all that shopping and running around! After buying out the baby stores we went on a spree for ourselves and came out with alot of stuff! Then we went back to the house and watched movies and relaxed a little. I think I'm going to try and slow her down some because I dont want her doing too much ya know? <br /><br />Anywho....I talked to Nickerson yesterday and he says that Kevin isnt really talking much which I must say isnt what I had hoped. Maybe he'll open up today....I hope so anyway. <br /><br />Ok....I hear Leigh callin me....gotta go! I think we're gonna play around with Bri's lil karaoke machine!!<br /><br />~*~Ki Ki~*~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:599 2002-09-25T22:51:39Z 2002-09-25T22:51:39Z Nick Carter - "Help Me" As I update I am packing to go to Atlanta to see Leighanne. Kevin is going to Florida because he needs to get out of this house.....*sighs* he and I argued for well over an hour about it. He thinks he doesnt <i>need</i> to go anywhere. But he wont talk to me...he's so withdrawn from everyone! We seem to fight alot more now than we ever have. We never fought until now. <br /><br />Anyway....I'm sure Nickerson and Brian will get him back to the guy I married and then he wont be a stranger anymore. I want my Kevy back. He's on one of his walks he has started taking more of lately. Last night he was gone for over 3 hours. That actually is what started the argument last night. All I asked was where he had walked and he bit my head off.....I dont know what is wrong with him but I wish he'd tell me. I'm about ready to give up on him telling me anything at all. <br /><br />Ok...I need to get ready to go..I'll update in a while! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiki_richardson:258 2002-09-24T23:53:55Z 2002-09-24T23:53:55Z I finally got one of these things! Leigh wanted me to have one so bad.....so I got one and here I am! I am working on getting Kevin to get on here as well but he's not into the technology stuff so I plan to charm him into getting one. We'll see! Anywho...just lettin you all know I am here! <br /><br />Leighanne- Hi sis!!! Glad you got me into this thing! Anytime you want a babysitter....call me! Kevin and I will babysit...gladly!! Love you!<br /><br />Nick "Nickerson"- Dont you worry....I'll make sure Kev doesnt tie you into a chair and make you listen to his music....I love ya hun!